Have you ever found yourself saying or thinking, “I trust you but…?” Any time a “but” precedes the words “I trust you” it usually means that we don’t trust or that we’re only willing to trust a certain amount (which isn’t really trust). There aren’t any “buts” with trust. Trust is one of those all or nothing words. You either have it or you don’t. I believe God is constantly wooing His children to trust Him.
Trust has been something I have always, always had a difficult time doing. For many years and many reasons I, unfortunately, adopted the idea that I couldn’t rely on anyone but myself. I think this was a combination of my personality and the circumstances that took place when I was a child. Either way, this has been one of the hardest things for me to really understand. Logically, I understand it but my heart has taken quite a bit longer to come around to it.
Recently, God’s been teaching me what I like to call SUPER trust in Him. That kind of trust that says, “this doesn’t make sense at all BUT I know that I can trust You so I will concede.” He wanted me to surrender this thing to Him that I really, really didn’t want to surrender. I initially thought there’s NO WAY God is asking me to surrender this thing to Him. It felt like if I surrender this thing then something inside of me will die. Through a time of prayer and getting insight from a friend, it turns out, He WAS asking me to surrender this thing to Him. I couldn’t believe it. How could my supposed loving Father ask me to give up this thing that was so integral to my life presently and my perceived future? What I didn’t realize is that this thing was keeping me from trusting Him and if I can’t trust God then I can’t move forward. God spoke to me and said, “I have something bigger and better that I want to give you in place of this thing but you have to let it go and do what I’m asking of you right now.” The ONLY WAY I was able to give up this thing was that I knew I could trust what God was saying to me because I knew Him and I knew His love for me. I knew that what He said was true because He has been so faithful to me in the past. I knew without a doubt that His love would satisfy the hole this thing had left.
The key component to trusting anyone is knowing them. Especially God. The bible says in Psalm 9:10, “And those who know Your name [who have experienced Your precious mercy] will put their confident trust in You, For You, O Lord, have not abandoned those who seek You.” We are supposed to know Him as our Father, our loving Father. To most of us He is still very unknown. Even those of us who have grown up in church, we know about God, we know the stories and we know what we are supposed to think about God but some of us still don’t really know Him. We haven’t experienced Him for ourselves. We don’t know how much He really cares for us and so we don’t trust Him to have authority to govern our lives. We don’t know if He is going to do good things for us. We don’t if we can full let go and trust Him.
God showed me through letting go of this thing that I am completely secure in His love for me. That security and peace really only comes through letting go of the other things we find security in. This could be a relationship, fiancés, dreams, school, etc. God may not be asking you to give up those things in the natural (or He may be) but He is asking you to find your security in Him. He’s asking for us to trust His process. He has only good things for us and the only way to truly experience those good things is to fully trust Him.